Just the Same Pain, Day in and Day out

Why is it we seem to have to justify the way we are feeling to everyone. 
With the hidden pains that no one can see why is it that unless it is a pain on the outside!! 
We don't have any real pain at all.


I woke this morning thinking "Oh no not again, just once I wish I could wake up feeling normal, no pain, no stiffness. I would love to be able to wake up and jump out of bed, when the alarm goes off, waking me for some kind of routine. A routine that I have tried to follow since all the Medical Profession seem to think we need to have routine in our lives......  
Well that routine has gone out the window for today. LOL 


Another day back in bed and not wanting to get out, nor have the energy to even make myself a coffee, to kick start the brain into gear.
Why is it we just can't get on with everything we need to do and have our pain manageable enough to live normally without judgement.


I would also like to point out I do NOT feel sorry for myself, I'm just making observations on my daily routine which ends up never being a normal day EVER !!!! But just once it would be wonderful to have a normal day.


I have followed all the general rules and advice given by our wonderful professional Doctors, and still come up with a big hole in their way of thinking. Actually I don't think it is really very easy at all to describe how we feel to them, since they themselves have no idea of the actual physical and mental anguish we go through from day to day living. Well just our normal GP's couldn't understand with all the patients they see every day, with their colds and flu, their aches and pains. So why should we be any different, here do this or take that and I am sure you will feel a whole lot better in the morning.
Wow does that really work for anyone !!! Really !!!


Since losing my parents 4 - 6 years ago, I am now able to, what is the word I am looking for here, possibly focus on my own health issues, since for years it had not been 100% but whilst my parents were also not in the best of health I chose to push my issues on the back burner so to speak. 
It did not mean that I did not have my pain issues nor did it mean some days I just wanted to lay in bed and not get out, but having them to care for, well my pain was merely placed on hold.
Whilst we would love to blame someone for all of our misfortunes, I have no one to blame nor would I blame anyone, I do however wonder if in a past life I might have run over a hell of a lot of China men..... but then who knows....... 


I will just continue my day half over which is was when I finally got out of bed, with a nice coffee and some warm toast. Perhaps give my dog a cuddle and then go back to bed tonight, hopefully feeling less pain than I did this morning.